It hasn't been all bad though, my body has continued to change and training is going great. I am touching myself more then ever and I feel AMAZING!!! My underwear are falling off and I am back in my size 2 Lulu speed shorts. My husband said I am so skinny it looks like my feet are growing!!! He also suggested that I am so little I may need to be in the figure category ;) AHHHHHHH!!! LOL!! My suits came and they are GORGEOUS!! I fear my prejudging suit may be a bit over the top with the metallic snake skin print but, hey, that sounds about right for me.
OK, OK, SOOOOO...I'm just human and I know these bad feelings and grumpiness will pass. I just needed to get it off my chest I guess. I am very thankful and proud of my accomplishments so far. Life changing goals like this aren't easy but they are so worth it. So far this journey has been an incredible growing experience and I am stronger then ever on so many levels. Especially mentally. I think about my life and I glow because I feel so incredibly blessed. The things I've lived through and the drastic changes I have made over the years are freaking awesome and looking back I can't believe I am here. It really is incredible. This all goes back to a post I wrote weeks ago... Anyone can change, It all starts with a decision, then a commitment to that decision, dedication along with consistency and perseverance. Perseverance is where your character comes in and you really get to shine after everyone has stopped paying attention and you are behind closed doors. That's when sticking with it really counts. I mean I didn't stop drinking a fifth and a half a day and then immediately go to the CrossFit games the next week or take care of my dad with Alzheimer disease ...it took time, hard work and a lot of growth to be able to handle things like that, especially while no one was looking. Sometimes you are forced into that growth, sometimes it's a choice.
Negatives of the week: The whole first paragraph DUH. Also I had a latte and a couple squares of organic dark chocolate ( I wanted to put that in the positives but since it is "cheating" I guess it should go here, blah).
Positives: Everything else. I LOVE TRAINING!!! I may be grumpy and starving in the afternoons but I am hanging in and enjoying the experience. I may need to consider setting aside a cat nap time during the day even if I don't actually sleep. A few quiet minutes to rest and reboot could be very helpful. Also I took a TOTAL rest day today and even though it is my usually miserable super low carb/cal day I feel great. Maybe I really needed that! :) AND MY SUITS ARE FANTASTIC!!!!!!!! HALF WAY!!!!!!! JUNE 8TH!!!!
I am thankful for this blog, it helps keep me motivated and I am so glad I have all this documented to look back on. Thank you guys for reading!!! Have a great week!!!!